Am i gonna sound silly?

 i still have second thoughts. the realization that i'll leave everything i know - i don't know.

but today i saw this tiktok card reading (and this is where i think i sound silly). it somehow managed to match my situation, saying i'm at a crossroads, and i need to choose between... well, it was a love reading but i interpret it for my career, AND that in the end it will work out for me, that the choice i make is the correct one.

and even without cards: the choice i make is the correct one. this is my decision and i'm gonna own it.

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