Eyeing the world

 I did get a new job! Finally. And, of course, they require us to get a medical checkup before starting to work, so I did just that. The last one of these I'd done when applying to work at Amazon - I was also about 12 kilograms lighter. I had my appointment for 19, and was there by 18:45. The doctor called me in at 19:15, or maybe .20, and I sat down, we talked. Normal stuff. Now, since it's called drama, and with that introduction, we should know what's coming. Among all the questions, she asked me about my height and weight, which I told her. She asked me if I gained weight in the past year, and how much it was. I sort of chuckled to myself, out of the nervousness, because I could not calculate - or my brain just didn't want to admit to circa 25 kilos gained in the pandemic? Before I could actually recall, what my weight was before lockdown happened, and then calculate the 25 that even now seems unrealistic (after all, I was trying to lose 30! and had lost 5, before g...

 you don't like drama? oh, if you do, you don't have to be shy! if ypu really don't, that's entirely okay, too. where should i start on my drama? well, as i arrived home, i was assigned different towels than the ones i usually use. my father seemed a bit awkward about them but i was too tired to pay it much mind, so let's say i'm projecting the awkwardness of it back. a few days passed like this... until, on a friday, i was informed that my father had a girlfriend now, and she was coming over. i went out for a walk, hurt myself badly, and when i arrived home i went into the bathroom to wash my wounds. first, i noticed some fancier toilet paper, and i smirked. just a man, i thought, after all, really wants to impress her. but after having washed my wounds, i turned to dry my hands, and saw my old towels on the rack. they were hers now. he put my towels out for her. this, honestly, turned to some bitterness. i would laugh the toilet paper thing off, i would not mi...