Eyeing the world

 whoever read my posts from January, or just has heard me talk about my life, will recall how deep an impression the film had on me. And it's kind of banal, to be frank. I originally watched the film after having read that "the pizza scene" changed someone's life, or body image, or whatever we wish. So, let me first describe what the movie elicited in me. I was, honestly, stunned. Stunned by the travels, the gorgeous foods and people, though I might say the cinematography was average. Good editing, of course, is what doesn't call attention to itself, but good cinematography might be harder to define. I just haven't felt like any of the shots had left any lasting impact on me, or the soundtrack, for that matter. The single exception is the Brazilian song, Samba da Bencao (I apologize for not using the proper letters), the Portuguese immediately stroked my eardrums in a familiar way, and I found the song to be quite soothing, enjoyable. I even have it on my spot...

 part two: a book review (content warning: dark. depression, potential sui ideation) This part is not really a review, more like a recommendation, relating my personal experience to what I read. Well, it did start out with Krav Maga. The more I went and trained, the more I would hear about bettering our coordination, and through that, our self-confidence, and isn't that what we all want? I did get a bit interested in biomechanics, the effects of exercise on our nervous system, and, of course, bettering myself. And because I also got an instructor diploma in early 2018, I feel it's my duty to learn more and more about anything that might be related to my field - especially since I want to teach one day. I did get the opportunity to teach, in the fall of 2019, a mother contacted me and asked me to teach her kid, privately, so of course, I threw myself into the thing. Coincidentally, I also had a friend visiting Budapest at that time, and she asked me what souvenir to bring. That...

 yeah i'm not gonna say its name because it might be ableist and i'd rather err om this side. the HIIT cardio workouts by Shaun T. i've been doing the program for 3 weeks and intend to do the 60 days twice, almost back to back. yes i want to lose weight. and it isn't my only motivator, i also want to get my mental health into shape again (well, void is not a shape, right?). oh, how difficult it is to be fat nowadays! i feel like i'm betraying the fat acceptance movement by this, and i still think it's the best choice for me. why do i think that after having tried and failed so many times, like so many people? because i've had horrible back pains, because i can't enjoy the things i love, and because the way i was eating in the past year is definitely detrimental to anyone. i'm so glad i felt the need to put that disclaimer. either way, let's get to the workouts. unsurprisingly, the Fit Test, the very first you'll do is also the easiest of them...