Short update

 I cannot explain what is going on. I may have had the worst morning of the year. I woke up at 2.50 am and did not manage to fall back asleep until my alarm. Then I did allow myself a few minutes of sleep after this alarm, before I went to the gym.

I am halfway through a third cycle of Insanity.

Today's workout was not, in fact, an Insanity video, because I felt really bad. I'm having some relationship problems, miss friends, family, habits...

But, and I don't mean to discourage anyone from their goals... I have to tell you about my last week. I could start this by complaining, but I'd rather emphasize the time I spent with a really good friend. We made some really good looking breakfast together, we go out for a run each morning, and to be honest, her presence makes me realize a relationship might even fit into my life.

So, among all the things we did together (me having taken 4 days off work) I did attend two of her university courses. They were literal torture. They made my blood boil, they gave me a headache, and, I hate to admit this, they actually made me glad I left university and happy for the job I'm doing. My job is honestly less tiresome than university. Now, this does have to do with workload as well, but even dealing with customers, falling on my face mid-sentence, even being chewed out for asking too much or too little help - has me feeling way better at the end of my workdays than university courses did.

Among all the negativity that has stirred up in the past few days, I really did need this small confirmation that I did made the good choice when I left uni. I thought I'd rather die than repeat a year, and I did end up doubting this choice (don't we all?). So now, I'm just that little bit more certain that I am on the right path.