business college

 Spite is the best motivator, they say. So often, I look at someone and my mind decides, if they could get what they want, why couldn't I? in the most arrogant way. In one way, this might be able to inspire me to reach for my dreams, but usually I just end up bitter - mostly, because what they had achieved, isn't that dreamy to me, but is still missing from my life.

I spent five years at the Pretentiously Reading Texts college, and can't say I was immune to the snobbery among different majors. I recall even professors, ones entirely too full of themselves, making fun of first-year students, actual teenagers, for having chosen a worthless, stupid, easy major. I wish I had reacted differently, but instead, I formed the mental image that business college must be easy. So, now, we're putting that to the test. So far, they only require your highschool diploma (let's say the SAT equivalent for my country), and a motivational essay, that isn't graded, but read. The Literature major required the exam score as well as the university's own admissions exam score; so this already seems easier.

We could say, it also seems riskier, as my scores were impacted significantly by the fact that I had to take an exam in two languages, being a minority ethnicity, and I spoke the majority language rather shittily at that time.

However, if I'm correct about the types of students this place attracts, I shouldn't be in for too much of a challenge.

What's next? We wait for 5 days for the results, and if I got in, we acquire all the literature listed in each subject's syllabus. I will not be caught off guard. I must pass all my exams so that next year, I can go on an Erasmus trip and finally, present my dissertation at two universities, thus granting me two degrees for the price of one.

But what if I didn't get in? I'll be at a festival when the results are posted, so, as a worst case scenario, I'll get drunk there.

For now, I'm proud of myself for getting out my comfort zone. This wasn't intellectually straining, but exhausted me emotionally. Note for self: invest into emotional resilience