Eyeing the world

 (content warning for negative body talk. skip to ctrl+F march to still read the point of this post) since nothing noteworthy has happened since me being rejected for that Portugal job, i'll write very shortly about my period. it's the most news a uterus owner has. i haven't had my actual period for two months. my last one was in december, and then in January, there was nothing. i chalked it up to january being a weird month, after all, i'd skipped a period in 2020 as well. then something happened, that i'm not entirely sure about. i did get some blood, and one very dark chunk of...stuff. before, i was just wondering, but then i got concerned. this repeated in february, too. it was not a normal period (thankfully that meant no pain either, only the worry), just a few drops of blood. literally a few drops, i didn't even need a pad, just a bit of toilet paper, and it wouldn't get soaked, just marked. the marks were dark, though. what happened? and i was so eag...

(content warning for a half-vivid description of nausea and throwing up) i got the first dose of the astra zeneca vaccine on the 7th of march. it would have been an uneventful sunday, but the vaccine required me to travel one hour by train, hang out 4 hours in a different town and then come back. i did make a short vlog about it, in hungarian. the vaccination center was an old, decaying hospital, the arrows intended to guide us were almost some magic help through a labyrinth. i did sign an informed consent form, despite not having been informed - it's just how healthcare works here. and i didn't actually mind at the moment, i thought i knew stuff. i thought it would give me a fever and some diarrhea. i did wind up getting the shot an hour before the actual appointment, because i was so bored. it was a small town, all the points of iterest within 10 minutes of walking from each other, so i thought i'd chill in the waiting room, but i got the shot instead. the 15 minutes of w...